I am a Virgin.
Now I'm just waiting to hear all the "Nahh Uhs," "You lyin," and "Your to cute to be a virgin." All that dumb shit. Why has it come a time in life where if you are a virgin and express that fact that you are, people look at you like you just cussed them out in arabic? It's the weirdest thing to me. For maybe two or more weeks now everyone, including my parents have questioned my sexual experience. When I tell then the truth about not having sex, they go into the lecture mode about how I shouldn't and say things such "If you REALLY are like you REALLY say you are.." which pisses me off. Yet if I lie, I get nothing but a "yea right," and they keep it moving as if I haven't said a damn thing. Is it really that impossible for me to be adult virgin, with good looks, a good head on my shoulders, and a very attractive boyfriend who is willing to wait? According to my peers, the answer is yes.
Making our way back from my stick driving lesson, my boyfriend and I entered his home to be greeted by the birthday girl, his mother. The whole night his family and friends called to wish them both a happy birthday, seeing as his bday was the next day. When the phone got to him, all his relatives and friends asked a rather simple question, "What are you doing?" He told them he was with me and that's when more little comments came. "Oh so you gettin' an early birthday present tonight," and "Make sure you wrap it up," and blah blah blah. It took me aback for them to even assume that we were sexing because they don't even know me. I didn't even know about some of these people until they called, and for them to automatically assume he getting some because we decided to spend some time together threw me. I can't just lay up on my boyfriend and watch damn movie or hold conversation without it going farther?? I guess my generation is that predictable and nasty that everything we do has to involve sex. But I'm not.
While on the phone yesterday, I get a text from one of my good friends. We get to talking about the day and about our boyfriends, just about a bunch of girly nonsense then the topic changed to sex. Just so happend at that same time the episode of MEET THE BROWNS was on sex and my mom was sitting next to me quite as a church mouse. I continued to text. She told me while at school that day her girlfriends where talking about who, what, and how they been "gettin' it in" and she had nothing to say. She too is a virgin. When they asked why she had nothing to say, she simply told them, "I have no experience. I am a virgin." I'm pretty sure after that confession, they went into the whole spill of "Girl you don't know what you missing." Do they not understand, virgins don't care what they have been missing because they haven't had it yet. That's just how I feel. I can't miss something I have never had or want something I never felt I needed. It took me this long to even find a boyfriend so why would I even rush into sex with someone I'm still getting to know. I like him but I'm not ready. He knows that and respects my decision. He may be the one later on down the line I will call my husband and yes, that's when he will get the goods but until then no. I don't want my special gift to my man to be all used up and worthless when it comes his time to have all of me. I'm not knocking anybody who want to have sex before marriage. If that's your thing by all means do you baby, but be wise. Everybody don't deserve all the greatness you have to give. Keep giving it away, you will have nothing to give to your future but crumbs. Excuse my language but I don't want to be CRUMB PUSSY.
